Frustrations

Well, it seems like my life has been falling to pieces recently. I think I've been crying, or on the verge of tears for weeks.

I'm back in the same spot with my job. It's easy, sure, but I don't move all day and I'm tired of being in the phone business... it's old. I really wish I had a job that requires more variety and movement. I work with chill people and it's a very employee friendly work environment. I'm just really tired of working on the phone, and now that they've imposed Mandatory Overtime... I'm about to go nuts by the end of my 10 hour day.

As for everything else... I've decided to wait to go to school until I get my residency. It cuts tuition in half and my year will be up in May. Wow.. crazy that I've been here for almost 9 months.

Recently there's been some drama with me and the house that I hang out at. Now, I haven't been too nice to them in the past month, but I just realized that due to some stuff that went down I was able to recognize that none of them care a flying flip about me and could care less about whether or not I'm around. I'm have not been a perfect friend, but to those of you who know me, I do make a big effort to be the best friend that I can be to everyone. I've been putting so much time and effort into trying to make some of these friendships work. I am so homesick for the friendships that I enjoyed in VA and when I moved it left a huge hole in my life that I've been trying to fill with mediocrity. And now I've realized that mediocrity won't cut it. Don't get me wrong I have made some very good friends that I love and adore, but the support system that was there in BV is gone. Well, it's still in BV, and I'm in Dallas... which does me no good. I am used to the respect and courtesey that was shared by my friends in VA, and the people that have caused the problem here do not understand what it means to be a friened. They have not even the slightest comprehension of what friendship and unconditional love really are. I have tried my best but I cannot deal with the disrespect, crassness, and completely juvenile behavior that I've just been letting roll off my back. To top it all off I'm still trying to learn to deal with my aunt and so I frequently feel like no matter where I go I'm being hit by a barrage of my faults and mistakes. I miss and love all of you on the east coast(and in Utah/Glasgow/and soon-to-be Russia ;-)), so keep in touch, because I desperately need to hear from you, and to the few of you who I have here, thanks. I couldn't do it without you. Sooo... yeah... I guess that explains whay I've been so... down. I'm working on it, so thank you for your patience.

Survey...

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Keely Shiraki
Birthday:	02/05/1983
Birthplace:	Must I?.... okay.....Provo, UT
Current Location:	Dallas, TX baby!!!!!!!
Eye Color:	Dark Brown
Hair Color:	Black
Height:	5'6"... or close to that.
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Mom is caucasian... Irish, mostly, and my Dad is full Japaneese. No I'm not hawaiian, tongan, samoan, or any form of Islander.. well, Japan is an island, but that's beside the point... Ireland is too come to that... ANYWAY
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Tennis shoes, but I'll be barefoot as soon as I'm off work!
Your Weakness:	baby blues, broad shoulders, a deep voice.....*sigh* and presents will get me EVERY time.
Your Fears:	death, loneliness, and 18 wheelers (curses on I-81!!!)
Your Perfect Pizza:	dunno... I like most kinds. it really depends on my mood.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Be happier
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol... and I'm the worst culprit!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	*groggily eyes the blaring alarm clock* What time is it? Damn!!! I HATE MORNINGS!!!!
Your Best Physical Feature:	I like my nose.. it's cute :-D... and my eyes on a good day.
Your Bedtime:	usually I try to make it around midnight... unless it's the weekend and then... whenever.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Childhood in general.... innocence, ignorance, and joy.
Pepsi or Coke:	Fountain Coke and Bottled Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Whataburger?
Single or Group Dates:	Depends on the Guy
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	I hate tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	White Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Starbucks or Daily Grind :-D
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	Hell no!!! ;-)
Do you Sing:	yup.. but a lot of people don't know that... it's really a passion of mine
Do you Shower Daily:	most of the time.
Have you Been in Love:	Yes.
Do you want to go to College:	Yeaahhh.... about that.....
Do you want to get Married:	Yup.
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	On occasion in my family's van.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Very infrequently
Are you a Health Freak:	Not really. I should be though.
Do you get along with your Parents:	As long as I'm not living with them.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yeah... they're... wonderful... I love the smell before one, especially here in Texas
Do you play an Instrument:	Clarinet, Bassoon, and Piano.. and I've tinkered with a few more, though it's been years since I've been serious about any of them.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	nope. never have, actually
In the past month have you Smoked:	no.. I don't like the smell
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Sadly, no.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Uhh.. Christmas was JUST here... what do YOU think?
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	box? no.. but I have had a few
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yeah.. but it wasn't so good, which was depressing.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Don't think so.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Did you read where I haven't been on a date?
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope.
Ever been Drunk:	I don't drink... remember?
Ever been called a Tease:	Not to my face.
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope.. but I've beat someone up before.
Ever Shoplifted:	wow.. that's redundant... refer to my answer 4 questions up.
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	Oh geez, Can I say all of them outside the US? Well... maybe not all. but most of South America, Africa, Asia, and Europe. Australia too.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue or Hazel... but it doesn't really matter.
Favourite Hair Color:	hmm... darker, but I've been known to like a few blondes.
Short or Long Hair:	usually medium length.. kinda beach-bum type, but a good short haircut can be hott
Height:	6'+ is preferrable.. I like 'em tall usually.
Weight:	never really cared too much.. just... proportionate is good
Best Clothing Style:	something that fits and looks good... if you, as a guy don't know, ask me, I can help. No really, I have refrences :-D
Number of Drugs I have taken:	uh... well, pain pills when necessary.
Number of CDs I own:	not enough of the ones I want and too many of ones I don't listen to.
Number of Piercings:	1 in each ear... though I've considered a nose ring or a tounge ring occasionally... i'll probably never do it though.. I don't like needles...
Number of Tattoos:	Yeahh.... like I said, I don't like needles. I'd have to be drunk to get one.... aaand since we've established that I don't drink...
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	maybe 5 or 6 things that still hurt when I think about them.
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Ringing in the New Year

Road trips are awesome though 16 hours of driving can be a little bit long especially after just getting home from VA, but I LOVED spending the new year in OK with Art and Hali. Sooo... I don't think I ever realized how FLAT the Oklahoma panhandle is. The crop fields seem to be never-ending. It's fantastic. It was sooooo good to spend time with Arte again.

As for other news, I'm still just working, and I'm not sure about what I want to do regarding school... we'll see what happens there. I spend the rest of my time chillin' with the crew at the boys' house aka the local bachelor's pad.

The best thing about the new year, aside from all the afore mentioned stuff, is the NEW SEASON OF 24!!!!! Everyone should tune in on Jan 15th and 16th for the 4 hour premire. 2 hours each day starting at 8pm/7pm central standard time... so 8 on the East Coast and 7 for those of you here in Texas with me. And that'll be airing on Fox. Lol... geez I'm obsessed... thanks Hannah. :-D

Well, I hope that everyone's new year was good, and I wish you all the best of luck on all your dreams for the upcoming year.