Just Another Day

Well, I was really looking forward to today. Too bad. I should learn to not do that anymore. It usually ends up being that the day is a huge let down. If I go into it planning to have a bad day, then I can hope to be pleasantly surprised. I ended up spending the whole day being homesick and wishing that I was in Virginia. I'm sick of not knowing anyone down here, and the few that I have met... I either don't know them well enough yet, or they're stupid, idiotic, morons who aren't worth my time. I realized the other night that I'd learned to take for granted the courtesies and respect that I enjoyed while living in VA. I have realized, much to my dismay, that many people do not know what common courtesy is. I mean, the other night I was at these guys' house and they proceeded to have a conversation amongst themselves about how hot an actress was (they were ogling a Maxim magazine) and being very, very crass. I made some very passive comment to indicate that I wanted them to stop talking about it, and they basically let me know that I could leave if I didn't like it. Now, they were probably right, because it was their home, but all I wanted to do was strongly remind them that if they ever wanted to get and keep a girl, they should learn quickly that, unless they stopped thinking with... well, anyway... I didn't say anything. Then, last night, I think I made two comments about some random actor being hot in the movie that we were watching, and they said that they didn't want to hear it. Mind you, all I said was that the guy looked good. I didn't go on about it at all, and they couldn't handle it. It just made me soo mad. I mean, correct me if I'm wrong. I felt like I should be able to say that a guy is hot, if they can talk about how they'd like to "pound the heck" out of someone. On top of all of this, I'm just missing everyone in VA. I didn't even get to go see any fireworks today, and we aren't at someone's house shooting any off either. I think it's been over ten years since I haven't watched fireworks on the 4th. It was disappointing. I don't fault anyone for it. We were at a singles activity and they were all going to see the fireworks, and then after we got in the car Hannah realized that she was just not feeling well enough to go deal with it. I don't blame her at all. She's not been feeling well all day long, I just really.... anyway, I'm sick of having my life tied to the schedules of everyone else. I do realize that it's my fault and everything, but at least in BV.. well, if worse came to worse I could walk. I guess I'm just feeling very lonely and homesick tonight. It'll be out of my system by tomorrow. Happy 4th y'all. I miss you.

Seriously people... just do me this favor. I'm gonna sleep and pray that it'll all be okay at the end of September.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Like my fathers come to pass,
Seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Ring out the bells again.
Like we did when spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rest,
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Like my fathers come to pass.
Twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.[x3]